Almond Gingersnaps

Almond Gingersnaps


Over the past few years of this blog I’ve on occasion written about my grandmother. I’ve shared her recipes for orange cookies and cranberry jell-o and today I have one more.

I’ve put off writing this post for months now. Every time I thought I was ready to share the news of her passing I couldn’t do it, putting it into words made it too permanent, too real.

My father called the Sunday before Thanksgiving. He had found her collapsed in the hallway of her apartment, still breathing, but not conscious. I sobbed in the shower that night, knowing I would never hear her voice again. By Tuesday she was still hanging on, but things were looking grim. I decided to pack the kids up and make the 10 hour drive first thing in the morning. We arrived  Wednesday evening and by then she had been moved to hospice. When I finally got to see her she was unconscious, struggling for breath, but still alive. I went to her bedside and held her hand, I told her I loved her and she rubbed the inside of my palm with her fingertips. The next morning she was gone.

The following few days were a whirlwind of Thanksgiving preparations, service preparations, speech writing, baking, cleaning, and childcare. The day of her death and the day after I think we were all so relieved that she was no longer suffering. The family had gathered at her apartment to help sift through her things and found so many treasures; letters she had written to her parents as a young stewardess, pictures of her popping out of a cake at my grandfather’s 50th birthday party, a Grandmother’s Journal my aunt had given her to fill out for her grandchildren where she was supposed to answer questions about her life. A task she was clearly none to pleased with since she, first of all, still had the book and secondly wrote responses such as: Describe the first house you lived in after you got married……..Dinky.

Almond Gingersnaps

 It wasn’t until I had piled the kids in the car to drive to the funeral several days later that the first wave of sadness hit me. I, of course, knew eventually that this day would come, she was 91 years old after all, but I was not prepared for the reality of it all, my little girl in a black dress, my little boy in a bow tie, strapped into their car seats awaiting what was to come. In that moment I didn’t want to be brave. I didn’t want to have a calm, loving face for my children, I wanted to curl up in a ball and let my heart fall straight out of my chest onto the ice cold cement.

Almond Gingersnaps

 The waves keep coming, in moments when I least expect them, but so do little gifts. I have a box of her handwritten recipes that she gave me when she moved from her home of 50 years to her apartment. There wasn’t much there, I think they were mostly recipes from friends, none I really recognized. When we were going through her things we found three more wooden and metal flip-top boxes full of recipes, the good ones, the ones that graced her table over and over again. Written in those recipes are the secrets to her famous dishes, mysteries solved, like why, for example was her Thanksgiving stuffing always so moist and fluffy? Could it be the pound of butter the recipe called for? And these gingersnaps were simply to die for, they had a tinge of special I was never able to put my finger on. Her secret? A touch of almond extract to round out the spice and highlight the molasses.

Almond Gingersnaps

I’m settling in to this new reality, day by day regaining my courage. A task made easier with cookies.


Almond Gingersnaps

Yield: 52 Cookies

Grandma's recipe says to make the cookies crispy you can put a few drops of water on top before baking. If you like that extra crackle, this is how to achieve it. 

Ingredients

  • 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
  • 2 teaspoons baking soda
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1 teaspoon ground ginger
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 3/4 cup vegetable shortening
  • 1 cup brown sugar
  • 1 large egg
  • 1/4 cup molasses
  • 1/4 teaspoon almond extract
  • 1/2 cup granulated sugar for rolling

Instructions

  1. Combine flour, baking soda, cinnamon, ginger, cloves, and salt in a medium bowl and whisk to combine.
  2. Beat shortening and brown sugar in the bowl of a stand mixer until fluffy.
  3. Add egg, molasses, and almond extract and beat to combine.
  4. Add flour mixture and mix on low until combined.
  5. Wrap dough and chill for at least 30 minutes.
  6. Heat oven to 375°F.
  7. Form dough into heaping tablespoon-sized balls and roll them in sugar to coat.
  8. Place them an inch apart on parchment-lined baking sheets and bake for 8-10 minutes or until they are crispy on the outside and soft in the middle.
  9. Let sit on the baking sheet for a few minutes, then transfer to wire racks to cool.
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Comments

  1. You are incredible – and thank you so much for sharing your life and having this wonderful blog…tomorrow – or maybe Friday – I will make these cookies and pay homage to those I have also loved and lost.
    - Natasha

  2. I love that your grandmother wrote ‘good’ and underlined it on the recipe card. It’s so tough to lose those we love, even when we know they lived long and happy lives. I lost my grandmother a few years ago and one of my favorite things is cooking the things she loved, and thinking of her. xoxo

    • Me too! There were several gingersnap cookie recipes in the box, but I knew this was the one she always made because of the ‘good’ seal of approval. Thank you for your kind words Kasey.

  3. Oh Kate- I lost my 92 year old Grammy last year. It was really emotional. I always try to remember that she is much happier where she is, it is always just hard for those of us left behind. But the beauty of having great grand children and of leaving so many memories and stories and treasures behind is such a gift. I keep meaning to go through all of my Grammys recipes (everyone gave me the cook books and recipe cards) but I am not sure if I haven’t had the time or the wits god o it yet. Much love to you and your family and I look forward to making these cookies :)

    • Thank you Heather. It is true she was much more prepared to leave than was I to let her go. I hope you can adapt these so your whole family can enjoy them.

  4. Hi Kate. This is beautiful and I will always remember your grandmother as a truly lovely lady! You reminded me of the stack of recipes I have from my Grandma B. Of 8 “salad” recipes, 7 of them include jello! I might have to have a jello fest one day! I plan to make these delicious looking cookies – thanks so much for sharing!

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